due to the nature of my RA, you’d think i’d be a little more sympathetic to people who are needy. well, i’m not. in fact, i think because i’ve HAD to overcome so much on my own and still be SO independent that people who are over-clingy put me off.
i have this co-worker who CONSTANTLY needs validation for and a reaction to EVERY.SINGLE.THING they do. it’s like those people who, during movies, look at you every two seconds to see your reaction before they react. it’s awkward and uncomfortable to be “on” like that all the time. i feel like they’re ALWAYS watching, waiting for me to be brilliant when, let’s face it, half the time my brilliant moments are no more than spastic outbursts. and it’s not just this co-worker who is needy, it’s a bunch of people around me right now.
the more i can sense their neediness, the more it makes me uncomfortable to be around them. i wonder if other people get this way, as well? yes, i understand the need to feel like i matter, but i don’t go looking for that in every single interaction i have. that’s just greedy!
